I hate Heroin

Heroin has been a huge part of my life for years and I hate it. No, I myself do not use the drug nor will I ever. I've seen friends and family suffer immensely because of it. It seems as if they would rather live miserably than go that 1 day without getting high. I've watched friends get clean just to get right back on it again. I've done all I can to be there for them, friends and family, but I am at the point that where I realized there is absolutely nothing left I can do. The user alone is the only person who has the power to make that decision to get better and to rid it from their lives. It takes a hell of a will power and strength that is unbeatable to get yourself off a drug like this. I used to stay up all night wondering if my friends/family member is okay, if they're still breathing, if they're in jail. I used to check on them at night to make sure they were still breathing in their sleep. I am at the point where I have no strength left. I am leaving it up to them and up to God. I only hope that they all realize their lives are more important than a temporary high, that there is so much life to experience sober. I know it feels shitty now but one day you'll look back and wish you never wasted these years. Only you can control what goes on in your life. You have so much more life to live. Please don't continue to waste it. I love you all.

The Avengers - Age of Ultron

So I went to see the new Avengers movie tonight and I just wanted to review my personal opinion with you all. I think it was awesome. There was so much action but not too much going on where I was still able to follow the story line. I've read a few comic books, but I can admit I do not know much about the comics themselves but listening to my friends talk about the movie in the car what I got from them was that the movie did the comic books great justice. I love Chris Hemsworth! Thor's always been one of my favorites and he plays the character so well. The Hulk (Mark Ruffalo) is also an awesome actor and by the way the movie ends I hope he continues to play the Hulk in the rest of the Avenger Movies.

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That crazy wrap thing

I just signed up to become a distributor for It Works products. If you haven't heard of them basically what we do is sell products to help you rid your body of toxins and fats. The body wrap is the most popular product and you apply it to your skin in problem areas for 45 minutes and then remove it. The wraps contain all natural ingredients such as seaweed, menthol, rosemary, eucalyptus, and green tea, You begin to see results from the wrap immediately but the real results show after about 72 hours from application. We also offer products to take with the wraps such as greens and fat destroyers. These products are meant to be used/taken with a healthy diet and exercise. Do not expect to eat McDonalds every day and see real results.  Drink lots of water! I just tried my first body wrap last night and am waiting to post before and after pictures. I am waiting on my bundle of products to really try it out but I do believe they actually work. We have many happy customers who continue to purchase the products every month. If you are interested in learning more please comment or even add me on Facebook at https://www.facebook.com/tee.leighsant.



Here is a picture of me when I applied my first wrap.

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I can see the light!

I got accepted for unemployment. I am no longer stressing myself to the point of exhaustion about paying my bills. Now I can use the help until I find another job. I did however get the papers in about my student loans. They want $300 a month from me. How do they expect me to do that? I have a car payment, car insurance, and on top of all that I am unemployed. I am trying to look into get it deferred or consolidated through someone. Life is utterly crazy to me. We go to school to get a good job, end up in debt for thousands of dollars, work to pay that debt off, and when that debt is paid we just have more debt piling up as we grow older.



Update: I found out I was only approved financially for unemployment. I still have to wait to be approved through the employer side. It's been a month. How do these people expect bills to get paid? I've been applying for jobs like crazy and I don't hear back from anyone.

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The Burden

I honestly feel like such a burden to everyone I know and love. Being someone who suffers from depression, I know myself that there's nothing I can do besides try and make a better life for myself and find that happiness that I seem to be missing. There's nothing I can do about how my depression affects the ones I love though and that kills me. I don't mean to be unhappy. I want to love and live and smile and just be generally happy for what I do have but everyday I am faced with what I don't and what I am missing as a person. This especially affects the relationship with my boyfriend. I don't want my unhappiness to rub off on him and today I confirmed that it really is. He is someone who is happy, someone I admire for not letting life bring him down...and I am bringing him down. I don't know what to do about it besides leave him and let him continue to be happy without the burden of me. I am a burden to myself and every one else and I truly don't want to be. But what to do about it? I am sitting here literally racking my brain for a reason as to why I am so deeply sad inside. The main thing that comes to mind is that I am not the person I want to be. I feel like I am failing myself. I have so many dreams, so many goals, and I feel that they are unreachable. No matter how hard I try I don't feel any closer to having the life I really want. I am not the type to give up. I will not let life drown me. I will get up and keep trying because honestly, I want to prevail. I don't want to be another victim.

Hey

I haven't posted anything for awhile. After I lost my job all I spend my time doing is looking for other jobs and have been so far unsuccessful. I am actually happy being a free spirit waiting for the next adventure that life will bring me.