Another 6:30 am

As I lay here trying so hard to find sleep and searching in all the wrong places, I sometimes feel like it's only me who has this issue. It's obvious that millions of people suffer from insomnia but mine feels like it's different, more severe. I try so hard to focus on nothing and stare at the blackness of my eyelids but thoughts just keep rolling in one after another. It's especially bad when I know I have to get up early for reasons only God himself knows. Sometimes I ask myself why do I care so much about these things to keep myself awake lying in the same spot for 6 hours? I even got to counting sheep which has never worked for me. Melotonin helps sometimes when I am having a good day. I can't stress enough how hard it is on my mind and body to not be able to find sleep when it's all I want. I want peace in my brain for just once. A day where I don't think of anything negative and sad, or overthink all the good things in my life and all the possible reasons they could go bad.